Practice the pause. When in doubt, pause. When angry, pause. When tired, pause.When stressed, pause. And whenever you pause, pray. -Unknown
As you can see by the limited number of entries, I do not blog often. To be honest, I would love to blog at least once a month because I miss it. I read Kerri’s post about not talking about diabetes for one day; I thought this would be the perfect time to blog.
She looked in the mirror and did not recognize the woman standing before her.
Her body worn, tummy is pudgy, and clothes fit a little snug.
Self-doubts run rapid inside of her head.
She knows she is not the woman in the mirror.
She knows she is not the thoughts in her head.
How did she get here?
Her confidence shaken.
Her spirit and determination will not let them win.
She has a plan.
She looks at herself in the mirror with a smile on her face.
She will prevail.
There us nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find ways in which you yourself have altered.- Nelson Mandela
I do not know why I created a URL that included diabetes because this blog will not be dedicated to diabetes. I will talk about diabetes when needed, but for the most part, this will be about me. I want to enhance my writing skills, share my thoughts on running, love for reading, passion for cars (my husband is rubbing off on me) and anything else.
I thought about buying a journal; it’s not my thing. I do not know why I love sitting at my computer desk, jamming out to music and typing my thoughts on the web. But, I’ve missed.
My Facebook status from December 31, 2016 at 10:36 pm:
2016 was the first time I focused on myself in a very long time. I went into 2016 focusing on the things I can control (mind, body, and spirit) and not stressing about the things that were out of my control.
My health is improving, my faith is stronger than ever, and I’ve been able to leave a lot of things at the altar. My Father is always on time!!!
I learned that letting go of stress and allowing God to lead and guide me has helped me evolve into a stronger person, better wife, better mother, better daughter, and friend.
The goal that I have for 2017 is to continue on the path that I started in 2016. I’m a work in progress. I ask that God orders my steps and that I’m wise enough to listen. I will continue to practice the pause. I know that 2017 will have ups and downs, but I hope and pray that I will be able to move past the bad days with a smile on my face–I refuse to let anything or anyone still my joy.
I made a decision to go on a vacation from diabetes for three days; I ENJOYED it. Thanksgiving 2016 was the best one I’ve had since I was diagnosed with LADA in 2004. I was able to focus on family, not graphs or the numbers. And to be perfectly honest it felt good. I was able to look at food as food and not as a calculation.
I deserved to be free from the stress, calculations and wanted to mentally focus on the people and things that I am grateful for; I did not want to allow diabetes to occupy my thoughts like it always does.
So being able to let go for three days is a HUGE deal.
I am going to make this a habit that when I am a vacation that I will allow myself to enjoy life and live a little by putting diabetes on hold.
*I bolused for each meal. I checked my blood glucose levels, but not six times a day like I usually do.
I started keeping a person journal which allowed me to get to know myself and have a little one one time with the man upstairs. But, a piece of me missed blogging and sharing. So, I have decided to share weekly and if I do not, I will not be upset with myself. I will share more once I start training for my first half-marathon in May. My blog has diabetes in the URL, but I will not blog about diabetes every single day or every week because there is more to me than a blood glucose meter, a pump, and a CGM.